why do i feel so sad

kawan-kawan,determinant,dengan ini gue mau minta maaf sebesar-besarnya sama kalian
gue rasa, gue udah kecewain kalian
ini soal BOB lho, gue rasa, gue gak maksimal
i didn't find my self
gue merasa gak punya kendali atas semua
gue minta maaf udah ngecewain kalian dan nyia-nyian kepercayan kalian
i'm really sorry guys for everything!
i just can hope that Allah, The Greatest, will give me strenght and give me some opportunity
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oh,so why do i feel so sad. . .