life's getting hard

Everyday I realize that this might be the last day of my life

Walking down the street I find that I'm coming closer and closer to losing my mind

'Cause when it rains, it pours

Isn't life worth more?

I don't even know what

I'm hustlin' for

You've gotta do what you gotta do just to make it through

All the hard times that's going to face you

This is the life, trying to survive

This is the life, trying to survive

Living will always be a struggle looking for someone to love you

Looking back at single horrors, this madness makes me want to hide

Slowly, internally,

I'm dyingPillow case is wet from all my crying

There is nothing more for me to live forTake me away,

I can't live that life no more

This is the life, trying to survive

This is the life, trying to survive

This is the life, trying to survive

This is the life, trying to survive

This is the life, trying to survive

This is the life, trying to survive

I'm just trying to get over

The Life by Alicia Keys

folks, di atas adalah The Life from Alicia Keys. dan kayaknya, lagu itulah yg lagi cocok menemani hari-hari gue yg makin lama makin gak karuan. Life is getting hard,huh?

actually, i don't feel like i'm in the wrong way.

i think that i'm standing on the place where i'm supposed to be.

i'm happy to be here and i'm glad to be here

tapi entah kenapa, life is so powerful! it's like that it has a power that can make me up and down easily

huh,it's so hard to survive!

kadang,apa yang gue jalanin gak selaras sama apa yang gue mau,yang gue pengen.

as i said,kita terlalu naif untuk selalu ngikutin nasib dan nasib terlalu licik untuk terus kita ikutin.

ntahlah,gue mungkin belum cukup pantes buat ngomongin how life is so cruel, so hard, and so harsh!

but i feel like i'm in it and down to it!

huh, i need to wake, really need to wake..

hidup terlalu sulit untuk dijelaskan

kadang kelam kadang hitam

kadang terang kadang suram

ketika langit bersabda,

muramnya mendung berarak awan

debu-debu terungkit,

hidup manusia jadi sulit

lalu ketika langit bersenandung,

beribu wajah murung sang duyung,

ubah jadi senyum manja penuh goda

seketika semua merasa bahwa,

hidup itu surga...

hidup memang terlalu sulit untuk dijelaskan

ilmu sedalam lautan,setinggi langit pun

tak kan mampu menerka rumusnya

tak kan mampu temukan maknanya

tak kan mampu! tak kan!

hidup hanya dikira

seperti apa?

hampa?

bahagia?

mungkin putih menjerat

seperti sulaman jala oleh ibu laba-laba kecil yang menyulam di dasar sebua gua

atau mungkin hitam lalu putih?

lalu, di mana ujungnya?

siapa tahu?

mungkin ibu laba-laba kecil tahu segala

namun ia hanya diam, simpan juta rahasia

dia tidak mau berbagi!

hanya tertawa dalam hati,

lihat kelakuan makhluk-makhluk dungu bernama manusia,

mencari jawaban yang tidak akan pernah ada jawabnya

ibu laba-laba kecil hanya tersenyum,

lalu lanjutkan bersenandung